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Woman man or modern monkey Trigger warning: Lets go with drug abuse and see how that goes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I think my wife summed it up pretty well with the statement “You have hit a new low”. I have a grinder. I imagine it is pretty effective with weed but did you know you can also use it to grind pills into a fine powder? well, I discovered this yesterday. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I’m so sick and done with feeling like this. They did change my meds and increase one of them. But its just. Meds are not the only solution. I need the therapy that goes along side it. I’ve asked and begged them to speed up the waiting list but its just running into a brick wall. I just have to wait and have a half-life until I get the help I need. I was so desperate to get away from feeling constant fear and paranoia, sick that I can’t leave the house, sick of just having the same medication. Its great. But its been more than a decade of taking anti-psychotics, narcotics and drink. I’ve been clean from drugs, uncontrolled drinking and self harm for over a year.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Snorting lines of prescription meds to just to evoke an emotion is a new low. Plus it filled my nose full of the fillers they mix pills with. Nose bleeds and constant pain for a few hours was TOTALY fucking worth it. Thats sarcasm. It was a cry for help but to myself. I did tell the wife because she was probably going to guess something was up with the constant snoting. <\/p>\n\n\n\n I’m ok, had a hell of a headache last night but all the stuff has passed through. Today I have kept myself busy cleaning the house and annoying the dog & cat with music.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I’ve taken some promazine. That should help. Takes the edge off. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Woman man or modern monkeyJust another happy junkieFifty poundsPress my buttonGoing down Trigger warning: Lets go with drug abuse and see how that goes. I think my wife summed it up pretty well with the statement “You have hit a new low”. I have a grinder. I imagine it is pretty effective with weed but […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[2],"tags":[601,1033,1120,1193],"class_list":["post-772","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-current-affairs","tag-drugs","tag-life","tag-mental-health","tag-music"],"yoast_head":"\n
Just another happy junkie<\/em>
Fifty pounds
Press my button
Going down<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n