I found a list of different interesting things to fill in here when I’m struggling with thoughts. Cheating but more help than cheat.

I’m still tired. I managed to drop off around 5am on the sofa surrounded by dogs. I’m shattered but it did the trick, I didn’t toss and turn thinking of things, I just passed out and had normal dreams. I’m regretting it now because I’m so tired. It’s hard to explain the level at which I cannot be bothered with thoughts while I try and sleep. I can lay there for hours just having someone run a commentary on my whole life and how much it sucks right now with the chronic pain stuff mixed with some mental health issues.

So back to the title of the post.

I have a bag. It’s blue. It contains EVERYTHING.

It’s my grab bag for when I leave the house. It has everything I need for emergencies that might crop up while I’m out. It’s a security blanket and makes me feel better having it near. So what’s in it?

Flashlight
Tile Tracker (hooked up to the house Alexa so D can find me)I
Pens & Notebook
Medication to last a week (in a pin code bag for safety)
Story Cubes in a handmade pouch (these have saved my brain so many times)
Surface Pad with charger
Multi-Purpose Tool
Crystals the kids bought me from a cave
Wipes, face mask, and alcohol gel
Unopened vape pen
Plasters
Blue inhaler
Powerbank and cables
Pen drive

That’s about it. Some personal stuff in there as well for good measure. But it’s enough bits to get me through any problems I might have when I’m out of the house. When being an operative word here.