I’ll talk about something that I find stupid.
You won’t find it stupid because you are normal.
Well maybe not since you are reading a blog filled with voidness.
So here it is…
I miss having friends and being close to them.
I’m painfully aware it’s due to my lack of leaving the house, social weirdness, and whatever is wrong with me. I start conversations in Messenger but get one answer replies and it feels distant. I have my best friend O who lives in Sheffield which is about 1.5 hours from here in the car. Not that far. Happy to go. Not happy to go outside. Rubbish thoughts. Stop talking. I know I’m not his best friend. I always have to text him and he never randomly texts me back. We used to live near each other in Wales. Every Friday we would meet up. We would talk. We would put on music and we would have a good time. Now I’m lucky to get a message once a year without me prodding him.
I don’t know what to do. Is there a book on how to act normal in society because I must be doing something wrong to lose all my friends. I have my D and she is truly my best friend but I need other friends to vent to and not dump on her all the time.
There must be an app where you can meet up with people who are also social…… argh. I’d settle for an online friend. Someone I can talk to. Someone who can tell me things that make the badness seem less bad.
Like I said. Stupid.
6 responses to “The Tomb”
it’s not stupid. really.
No I guess not. But it still feels alien to me.
Not stupid at. Hu,and are social creatures, so that means if you are human you will need some socialization. Not sure an ap is the solution you seek. Research has shown that the more people are “connected” via the internet and social media their experience of loneliness actually increases. Another suggestion could be to think about activities you like and then find a group or club that involves that activity. It may be awkward at first but you will have the activity, crafting, woodwork, hiking, whatever to fall back on. You could take a class or join a book club…..
I like the idea of using meetups to join groups and things. The problem is leaving the house, if I can manage that then I could do anything! Book club sounds like a good idea. Thanks for the advice.
There are online clubs and groups as well but be careful when giving yourself permission to avoid the thing which scares you. Anxiety is your ally warning you of the presence of potential danger, but if you make too much of a habit out of avoiding it you could easily become trapped by it.
First line should read “not stupid at all. Humans…” stupid tablet keyboard. Sure wish WordPress would allow one to edit their comments.