What bad habits do you want to break?

So I have a few bad habits:
1. I love to live and dwell in the past.
2. I have narcissistic tendencies.
3. I’m grumpy.
4. I have agoraphobic episodes.
5. I haven’t stepped out of the house in well over a month, going to two.

Those last few seem like issues and not habits. I guess not leaving the house became a habit. I can only go so far for some reason and this health stuff really isn’t helping. Living in the past is a major one for me because I replay everything over and over again in my own private cinema in my head. Constantly. Then guilt tripping and not seeing the good. I’m narcissistic when I get bored or want some drama in my life. That’s a very bad habit.

How can you break these bad habits?

Most of them I would really struggle with to be honest. Living and dwelling in the past would be the hardest one to break. I tell myself on a daily basis that whatever has happened has led to where you are now. If you were to go back in a time machine and change it, the present would be altered and you wouldn’t have the kids you have now. Hopefully, that makes sense. It does work sometimes so I guess more positive and rational thinking is needed to break through on that one.

So narcissistic would be realizing the pain and hurt you cause someone, whilst might be fun for you, it certainly isn’t for them. I need to keep realizing that other people exist. It’s not just you in a coma thinking all this up. Be nice. The thing is I am most of the time it’s just sometimes it brings a little relief like self-harm. Both are not good coping mechanisms.

Staying indoors and hiding from the work will take some mammoth effort and I will need the help of D or carers to do it properly. I might get out once, then everything will be fine, and then something will epically fail and I will stay home again. I’ve tailored my life around staying at home and not leaving.