What is taking up most of my headspace at the moment?
My headspace is filled up with getting a new house, dealing with a new physical disability, dealing with the breakup of my marriage, and all the random meetings I have to try and resolve all three problems. I have a Nordic walking group that I will be attending soon via the GP as apparently, that can help you. The other part of my brain is trying to sort charity stuff out, who has requested what, and then trying to fulfill everything. Then I’m attending the office two days a week again to help my apprentice. The self-harm that is happening is down to ALL the above as my way of coping with things. I know I have a lot on but I’m really hopeful to have less on when somewhere to live is sorted.

Do I struggle to keep my daily routines?
Yes, every single one except my pill routine but that’s been something I’ve done since 2011 so used to that one by now. I need prompting or reminding for everything else or just winging it seems to be working at the moment.

What am I doing today that gives me pleasure?
Wouldn’t it be nice to answer that question with something positive? Even my sleep is really messed up so no joy in that anymore.

Have I been doing any physical activity lately?
Walking the dogs, a bit further every day to rebuild strength.

Do I have problems sleeping?
Yes. When I can’t sleep it’s bad. When I do sleep I’m having night terrors and brutal nightmares.

Have I eaten regularly and healthily, and do I drink enough?
I always have an evening meal and occasionally lunch. I binge eat in the evening which I shouldn’t because of not being fully active.

Am I withdrawing socially?
I was always withdrawn, this just buries it.

Do I have uncontrollable emotions?
I have been randomly crying again. So sitting there, tears coming down my face but no explanation from my brain as to why I’m doing it unless I think really hard. To be honest I’ve not had time for dealing with emotions yet. When I’m not doing stuff I’m laying down because my back hurts.

Am I losing interest in activities that I enjoy?
Yes. Every day. I used to be quite happy playing different games, trading cards, comics, and reading but now I don’t do a single one of them. That makes me sad reading that back. I wish for simpler times!