Okay so there have been a few men in my life that have positively impacted it. I won’t mention anyone’s names as that might be weird if the read the blog and find out.
The doctor
About a decade ago, well, a little under, I was living in Stockport, Manchester with the now ex and kids. I used to go to my doctors office which was across town where I lived before moving in with Doti. I kept the same doctor as we had a good rapport and he knew everything about me. At this stage of my life I was a mess. Injecting, taking anything I could find, multiple suicide attempts and trying to work out this strange BPD diagnosis. Anyway, I came in one day. Before I came in to see him I injected myself with a little something and went in. It was a bad one. It was an instant mistake.
So I walk in and sit in reception waiting for my name. I get called through. “I told you, you would end up like this” he said as I was sat there shaking violently and not being able to get any words out. He found out about the suicide attempts then proceeded to have a go at me for 10 minutes about how I have everything in life and that the last thing I should be doing is killing myself. Then repeated it several times. At the time I was pissed at him. How insensitive can you be. A few days past. I was about to OD on some pills and all I hear in my head is him constantly droning on about how I shouldnt do it. I didnt. I think that qualifies him as someone who positively impacted my life.
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