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A year goes bye [sic]
So some how a year has lapsed since I was last on here. I do have positive things for a change. Something haven’t really changed. Others got worse but then thats par for the course. I quit alcohol on 1st Janurary 2022 and stuck to it, not a drop since then. Its been really hard…
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Oh FFS…
Woman man or modern monkeyJust another happy junkieFifty poundsPress my buttonGoing down Trigger warning: Lets go with drug abuse and see how that goes. I think my wife summed it up pretty well with the statement “You have hit a new low”. I have a grinder. I imagine it is pretty effective with weed but…
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Howdy
SO I havent resorted to drinking yet which is always a plus. I had another wobble. These past few months have been relentless with them. I know I’m supposed to realise that wobbles happen, you execute the care plan and then it stops before flairing up again. Some days great, other days irrational thoughts overload!…
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Hello
So it happened again. I fell off the face of the earth again but alas I have now returned. I’ve not done a post recently as I’ve been busy sorting out my mental health stuff which was overdue a collapse. Life has been ticking along. Kids are now in school again and life is starting…
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Why does my brain do this?
I’m angry. Frustrated and demotivated to the point of throwing in the towel. Not with my day to day life but my work life. I overheard a group of people at the job centre say “He can’t be that bad if he’s self-employed” amongst other things which are on my records. I was sat on…
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To whom it may regard
I’ve been reading up on what things I can write about to get things off my chest. I used to use BetterHelp.com for that but it got a bit expensive. Its great but its a strain on the family finances hence coming back to blogging. There is a suggestion that you should write a letter,…
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Camping
We escaped the house and fled to Sherwood Forrest, where the legend of Robin Hood resides. When we got there (eventually after a 2 hour traffic jam) we pitched in the rain whilst the kids stayed in the car playing on phones. We got soaked. Everything but we managed to get everything setup and changed…
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Squirm
So S is at home with me at the moment as her bubble burst at school for the second time this year. Its a bit sad because this was her last week in Primary School before heading to High School in September. So she is doing classes online since Monday and I’ve been working from…
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Escaped!
The meeting with the consultant went really well. They didn’t section me so I’m so thankful for that as I was so scared of missing B’s communion. They are altering the meds slightly and giving me a new care plan. Fingers crossed that will help get me out of this funk or at least let…
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Blank Pages
After all the stuff that has been happening mental health wise, my doctor made an urgent referral to the hospital again so I can see my consultant. I thought in preperation I would type down my thoughts. What I typed I dont know as I didnt look at the screen, printed it and closed notepad.…