Category: Randomness

  • Crappy poem #8

    The pain is all I knowIt’s all I feel, it’s all I showI cut, I burn, I bleedI do it all to numb the pain inside I know it’s wrong, but I can’t stopIt’s like a drug, I’m addicted to the dropOf blood, of pain, of reliefIt’s all I have, it’s all I need I’m…

  • No man’s land

    I’m trapped in this do a post or don’t do a post, like trench warfare neither side is winning Nightime meds dropping from the sky lulling me to sleep. It’s 22.45 here. Not late but not early either. I have an aching need to have a drive but where too is beyond me. Think that…

  • QOTD Strikes again!

    Currently, I’m experiencing Shame, guilt, and gratitude. Shame because of the self-harm I’ve just done on my shoulders and upper arm. Wrong side of an adjustable spanner so now I’ve ruined my favorite t-shirt due to blood stains. Guilt because of feeling sorry for myself and what I’ve done to make D leave. I haven’t…

  • *poof* and he was gone

    Ever have something you know you needed to do? something important, something you really shouldn’t forget what it is. I’ve had that all day. Then, now, when thinking about the kid’s dinner the mind has definitely disappeared somewhere. I know S is getting her braces done and will be back shortly so maybe I don’t…

  • Random Questions

    What is taking up most of my headspace at the moment?My headspace is filled up with getting a new house, dealing with a new physical disability, dealing with the breakup of my marriage, and all the random meetings I have to try and resolve all three problems. I have a Nordic walking group that I…

  • A working title

    Not sure what to post on here that isn’t me going on about self-harm and its rapidly increasing damage, This is S’s laptop. We looked online for stickers but they cost £1-2 each. For a sticker on red bubble. It is crazy when your daughter wants to sticker bomb her laptop. So, true to her…

  • QOTD

    The most simple things in life often bring me the greatest level of peace. Sitting in the garden watching the birds attack the bird feeders. Typing on a new keyboard. I only say that last one because I’ve had to buy a no-noise one as my previous mechanical one was driving B crazy. He can…

  • Midlife Madness

    So today is my birthday! 40 years, never in a million years did I think I would make it to this milestone. Despite trying my best to kill myself multiple times, I am somehow still here. I find that cause to celebrate. A subway with all the toppings is en route. I got cards this…

  • Guilty Picture

  • Random Photo of the Day