I will be 40 in a few months and it feels like I should be thinking about the future. About what I want out of life, what I want to do with life, and how to exist. Should I retrain into a new profession, or should I stop the charity work for paid work? What lessons can I teach my son, what experiences have they had? They are growing up now too. B is going to be 12 and R is 13! The things they like are so different now and I think I miss them being small. I never thought that, I always wished they would be teenagers and sleep all the time but now I miss them. What is life like, post-kids? we want to buy a house but struggling with the deposit. The price here in Manchester is crazy so we are looking at Scotland near Saltcoats. Cheaper and bigger houses just be a shame to move the kids while they are in school still.
Trying to figure out if this is a midlife crisis where I miss everything, want to change and try new things and explore the world more. I was very lucky when I was young as my parents took us on trips around the world, going to different places. I thought I would have found my place in the world by now.
D is taking the kids on holiday. B first to Germany for a few days and then probably Spain with S. I will be at home for both trips, staying with the dogs, and because I trigger B. Dont know what to say about that really.
Rambling blog post today
- What are your values? What is important to you? What do you want to achieve in life?
- What are your strengths and weaknesses? What are you good at? What do you enjoy doing?
- What are your dreams and goals? What do you want to accomplish in the next 5, 10, or 20 years?
4 responses to “Rambling”
I relate to this post so much. I’m an older person myself, and I’m also thinking about where I am in life right now. Honestly, I’m not where I thought I would be at this stage in life, and to make matters worse, I’m still figuring things out. I feel like I’m too old to still be unsure of myself. With that being said though, I’m trying really hard to look at what I’ve accomplished, because I have accomplished a lot so far. Im also trying not to compare my accomplishments to the accomplishments of others. That only brings me down. I’m also reminding myself that everyone moves at their own pace. There is no rush. I’ll get to the finish line when I get there. And that’s my rant! Lol. Thankyou for the thoughtful post!
Oh, that’s something I totally agree with you on. The comparing of ones self to someone else. I often think about quitting social media simply for that reason. All the smiling faces, kids being taken to Disney land and Dubai, all smile. And yet here we are struggling to pay rent and keep two kids eating and running. Comparing a staycation to a grand trip around the world makes me feel inadequate and a bad parent.
Oh wow! I can relate to wanting to quit social media. I see all the comments and likes on other people’s posts and I can’t help but compare. I got rid of social media apps for that very reason. It forces me to have to sign in, and having to sign in discourages me from going on social media. I also avoid a flood of social media notifications on my phone, most of which don’t even have anything to do with me. Lol. Mostly just updates on what others are doing.
That’s actually an excellent idea, having to sign in each time, puts an extra step in the process. I’m the same with my phone unless it’s an essential app like the bank, text, or call then it doesn’t show up.
Thanks again for the tip!