I’m starting to get better and better at typing things which is great. I’m in hospital again. Been 4-5 days but not truly sure. It’s a strange experience. A surreal waking up experience of bright clinical lighting, sounds of the wheels on a trolly passing by and all the other things that come with a hospital stay. I’ve been assured that freedom shall be granted soon. I’m hoping on Saturday. Neurological function disorder. I heard him say that a few times. Got another scan then a lumbar puncture followed by bloods then hopefully they’ll find out what’s triggering the shit storm in my brain.

I’m terrified it will happen again

I feel like such a failure, liability and it’s dark at the moment. Home life personal issues don’t help nor my day to day mental health crap.

Not feeling it today. Maybe tomorrow will look better.