Hello. Firstly I would like to apologize for not doing a post yesterday. I took the easy way out and did multiple QOTDs. Things are going well. Ish. I did self-harm in the end last night because I couldn’t stop the stupid thoughts going through my mind. Bit of damage, but nothing the dr needs to see.

My best friend emailed late last night which was awesome as the missing company now. He is doing well with things but also has his own battles at the moment as well. We are trying to arrange a date to meet up in the city, book a hotel and spend the night catching up. That will be great as yeah, social contact is needed.

As I was desperate to leave the house (and not just walk the dogs for 5 minutes) I drove over to the supermarket nearby. I walked around and my god I was tired by the end of it. I think I bought two random items. See, us British have this thing that if you go into a shop you MUST buy something otherwise they will think you are stealing something. It’s very annoying but ingrained in our DNA. I was quite surprised that it wore me out as much as it did. I really need to recover faster and do the walking more often. Even if it’s just walking somewhere alone so I can take my time and not be dragged.

Ended up watching MasterChef till the early hours and we all didn’t wake up till after 9am. I love Sundays for that reason. D & S are going to a roller skating place today, B is home with me. I pressed a button by mistake and it deleted his 700 follower tik tok account. I’m not in his best books at the moment. It happened when I handed the phone back and my finger must have touched the X and closed the age verification thing he needed to do.

Anxious about the meeting on Tuesday. It’s with my social worker, then the mental health consultant, and following that the housing officer for the area. It’s in a place I don’t know. I think I know how to get there. I’m just anxious as its a few people in a room talking about me which I’m not very good at. I forget to ask questions, I muddle the answers and say the wrong thing and not to mention the social awkwardness which when it kicks in I just put up a wall and become confident Andy and everything is fine, and no issues in the world. So yeah. trying to forget about that until Tuesday morning.

The Pokemon blister packs remain unopened.