My eyes hurt. I’m sure this is down to a lack of sleep. Got the screen on the dimmest mode possible which is helping. I’m having another rough day. Its been relentless for what will be a week tomorrow. I don’t want to go to sleep. Not for some petulant reason but more if I push myself to exhaustion then when I do sleep it will be dreamless. I know I’m supposed to take PRN meds when this happens but I took them yesterday and really didn’t like what they did to me.

I’m finding it hard to keep this bad stuff bottled up. I’m trying my hardest to not unleash it upon the family so it doesn’t affect everyone. Not that I would do anything stupid but it would just worry them and I don’t want to do that at the moment. Things are fractured enough in the family, I fear any more additions would break the horses back.

Happier things,

Dobby the dog has found a new hobby. I discovered this whilst doing the dishes earlier this week. Although, I have noticed that randomly socks appear in the kitchen. I thought that it was someone just ditching socks so I can match them. But then I noticed the dog acting funny. It seems Dobby has developed this habit of picking up a sock and placing it randomly in the kitchen. He doesn’t chew it, nor does he play with it. He simply picks up a sock and put’s it on the floor and then runs off to fetch another one. It appears that he will only do this when I don’t look at him. It is unbelievably cute and probably stems from his sheepdog heritage. So far this week he has beaten his personal best of three socks placed while my back is turned. He annoying cute bugger that he is.

As it’s almost 2am, and D went to bed early, I’ve got both of the dogs with me downstairs while I type this. Probably best not to take them upstairs and sleep in the bed as it will wake D up and she’s not been feeling well lately. She’s having a bit of a hard time working things out so I try and just be helpful when I can and listen when she speaks. So. Yes, Dogs are sleeping on the sofa. One side each. It’s cute but the only problem is I now have nowhere to sleep down here. I’ll probably sleep in the middle and see what happens. Slowly stretching out to the point of poking them out with my feet. It’s nice that every day, little by little, they are more accepting of each other. It’s not like they growl or bite, or fight, but yeah. Who knew that an extra dog would bring some companionship for Nina and ultimately me as well. We do however still need a cat to make up the numbers in the house. Saying that Nina is in her sanctuary upstairs away from Dobby who chased her whenever he gets the chance.

That’ll do for the midnight thoughts.

Think I can manage another hour. Should be enough for a very deep sleep without my thoughts plaguing me before falling asleep which worries me the post.

Goodnight. Hope you all had/have an amazing weekend.