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Black dog
The black dog was always there. It followed me everywhere I went, lurking in the shadows, waiting to pounce. I could never see it clearly, but I knew it was there. It was the depression. It started slowly. At first, I just felt a little bit down. I didn’t want to go out, and I…
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Expectations
I’m having some major anxiety issues at the moment. I’m sure my leg shaking can be heard from miles around. It’s on hyperdrive mode at the moment, when it’s not shaking my soul is trying to escape through from my stomach. Soul. Stomach. The demon might be better tbh. I just need to try and…
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Dantes Inferno
So looking back on my life the past few weeks has become a bit troubling. The sleep things. They are by far the most annoying thing happening at this moment in time. Although it’s not sleep. And it’s not being awake either. It’s a nothing existence. I go to bed. I sleep for 8 hours.…
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Easter aka Zombie Jesus Day
It’s been a real roller coaster the past few days, to be honest. I started getting hounded with thoughts and imaginary guilt trips which I really didn’t need. Why I do this to myself I don’t know. Reliving memories and seeing the pain, hurt, and suffering I’ve caused. My brain takes it out of context…
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When mum comes to visit
I’ve been meaning to write this down for a few days now before it gets lost in the mess that is my brain. I was walking out of the shop before getting the kids from school and clear as day I heard “Hoi lieverd, echt een prachtige zon vandaag. Hoe het met jou?” in my…