Social Anxiety I’m so afraid of what they’ll think Of what I’ll say or do I’d rather stay inside and shrink Than face the world anew My heart starts racing, palms are sweaty My voice is shaking, I can’t speak I just want to run and hide, but I know I have to face my…
As we hit the summer months, I find myself craving alcohol more and more. I know I slipped up earlier this year. It’s truly shocking the stuff that your brain comes up with to justify having a drink. My main problem is with rum and red wine. Not together. Although if you mixed them together…
Do you love your current job? Why or why not? Yes. Although it’s volunteering so not a paid job. But that said I love what I do and when I do it. I work with a company called the MDC, and we provide digital resources to those who cannot afford them. We work closely with…
If I make it to retirement age, they keep changing the age, I would love to retire to a static caravan in Whitby or Scarborough with D. To dance to loud music, drink with friends, and talk the night away before cuddling up with D in a nice warm bed. To watch sunsets and laugh…
Depression Depression is a dark cloud That hangs over my head It follows me everywhere And makes me feel so dread I can’t seem to shake it No matter what I do It’s like a heavyweight That’s weighing me down I feel so tired And I don’t want to do anything I just want to…
So this is a photo from B’s baptism a long time ago, 2013 I think. D, M, and B are in the foreground, and my mum and dad are in the back. It’s an important photo for me as it reminds me why I’m here, why I should still be here, and that I love…
Winter. Winter. WINTER. Pref around December near when its the shortest day. I’ll be walking, at night, in the cold. So cold I can see my breath. It’s snowing but nothing heavy. I don’t have a hat on and my coat is kind of thin for the time of year. I’m cold. I see my…
The black dog was always there. It followed me everywhere I went, lurking in the shadows, waiting to pounce. I could never see it clearly, but I knew it was there. It was the depression. It started slowly. At first, I just felt a little bit down. I didn’t want to go out, and I…
What bad habits do you want to break? So I have a few bad habits:1. I love to live and dwell in the past.2. I have narcissistic tendencies.3. I’m grumpy.4. I have agoraphobic episodes.5. I haven’t stepped out of the house in well over a month, going to two. Those last few seem like issues…
I think we are at 2 months now with not leaving the house. The doctors have advised me not to drive due to the random blackouts/zoning out. No answers yet on what is causing them. I filled in a form for the Doctors to get a callback, it was accepted and they will call tomorrow.…
