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Random Photo of the Day
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We got there in the end
Hello. Firstly I would like to apologize for not doing a post yesterday. I took the easy way out and did multiple QOTDs. Things are going well. Ish. I did self-harm in the end last night because I couldn’t stop the stupid thoughts going through my mind. Bit of damage, but nothing the dr needs…
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A good day
I did it! I finally went and bloody did it. D stayed home, and I finally got out. For three hours. But short as it was I made it to the office. I got hugs from everyone there and spoke with my apprentice face-to-face for an hour, which we usually do over email or the…
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Random Q’s
How much do I think I rely on external validation?I suppose most people will be the same. I do rely quite heavily on external validation. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have a blog, which is let’s face it- all about you and your world looking for people to comment on or like for validation. In my day-to-day…
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Quotes that are helping
“Do what you love, love what you do, and with all your heart give yourself to it.”― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart “Once you realize you deserve a bright future, letting go of your dark past is the best choice you will ever make.”― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart…
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That didn’t go as expected
ded up waking up two days ago, at 4am, with an FND attack. I couldn’t speak properly, nor move around or do anything. I went upstairs to the bathroom in the end. Then back down and slept it off. It was still there when I woke up but its better now. I can function again.…
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A picture paints a thousand words
So back in 2010, I took this shot from the outskirts of Manchester. If you squint you can see a red light in the middle. That is the light on the then-tallest building right in the middle of town. I used to come up here to relax, imagining all the busy people, the millions of…
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Digging Deeper #7
How do I feel at the moment?Angry, ashamed, sorry for myself, and a whole host of negativity. What do I need more of in my life?Happyness, friends, purpose What would make me happy right now?Seeing my best friend who lives far away What is going right in my life?I’m keeping the blog up to date,…
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Crappy poem #7
I’m angry, oh, so angry,That you’ve left me after ten years,And I’ve done nothing to deserve it,That’s what I can’t seem to learn. You say I’m too controlling,That I’m not spontaneous enough,But I’ve always tried to be there for you,And I’ve always put your needs first. So why have you left me?What have I done…
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Very superstitious
It happened. I got so depressed that I thought I would pick myself up a bit and dust off. Took my big boy pills and took the dogs for a walk. Granted it was just to the green space across the road but I managed a few laps of it before getting agonising back pain.…