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Reborn
As we hit the summer months, I find myself craving alcohol more and more. I know I slipped up earlier this year. It’s truly shocking the stuff that your brain comes up with to justify having a drink. My main problem is with rum and red wine. Not together. Although if you mixed them together…
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Digging Deeper #5
Do you love your current job? Why or why not? Yes. Although it’s volunteering so not a paid job. But that said I love what I do and when I do it. I work with a company called the MDC, and we provide digital resources to those who cannot afford them. We work closely with…
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QOTD
If I make it to retirement age, they keep changing the age, I would love to retire to a static caravan in Whitby or Scarborough with D. To dance to loud music, drink with friends, and talk the night away before cuddling up with D in a nice warm bed. To watch sunsets and laugh…
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Crappy Poem #1
Depression Depression is a dark cloud That hangs over my head It follows me everywhere And makes me feel so dread I can’t seem to shake it No matter what I do It’s like a heavyweight That’s weighing me down I feel so tired And I don’t want to do anything I just want to…
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A picture paints a thousand words #4
So this is a photo from B’s baptism a long time ago, 2013 I think. D, M, and B are in the foreground, and my mum and dad are in the back. It’s an important photo for me as it reminds me why I’m here, why I should still be here, and that I love…
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QOTD
Winter. Winter. WINTER. Pref around December near when its the shortest day. I’ll be walking, at night, in the cold. So cold I can see my breath. It’s snowing but nothing heavy. I don’t have a hat on and my coat is kind of thin for the time of year. I’m cold. I see my…
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Black dog
The black dog was always there. It followed me everywhere I went, lurking in the shadows, waiting to pounce. I could never see it clearly, but I knew it was there. It was the depression. It started slowly. At first, I just felt a little bit down. I didn’t want to go out, and I…
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Digging Deeper #4
What bad habits do you want to break? So I have a few bad habits:1. I love to live and dwell in the past.2. I have narcissistic tendencies.3. I’m grumpy.4. I have agoraphobic episodes.5. I haven’t stepped out of the house in well over a month, going to two. Those last few seem like issues…
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The Tomb
I think we are at 2 months now with not leaving the house. The doctors have advised me not to drive due to the random blackouts/zoning out. No answers yet on what is causing them. I filled in a form for the Doctors to get a callback, it was accepted and they will call tomorrow.…