What are some toxic habits I have?

Ugh.

1. Lack of empathy, coldness and not understanding – Being a borderline makes understanding other people’s emotions a bit weird. Say I ask you a question and you answer. Most people leave it at the at but no, not me. I’ll be judging the tone of your reply, your body language, and the way you worded it. Everything. Oh god, you must be angry and it’s my fault, Let me cut off my arm or give t you to escape the shame.
2. Ego – I’m so good at x I can do anything. Skiing down a slope thinking this can’t be hard. Twisted my thumb and almost broke it. That’s just one example.
3. Wanting to watch the world burn – Nothing gives me greater pleasure than putting myself in a worse position than I already am just for the sake of those words. i.e. Give the beggar all the money I need for rent.
4. Lying & cheating – Yup usually goes with loyalty but the downside of it.
5. New social skills – I don’t work well with others because my social skills are somewhat lacking.
6. Drugs. – And alcohol too. Been clean for a very long time but that voice is and will always be there.
7. Procrastination. – I will do anything I can to avoid doing the things I need to do.