Category: Current Affairs

  • Blue Bear

    The cooling stand that I bought for the beast of a laptop came today. Atleast I think it was today, yes, definitely today. I ordered a mouse to go withit as well which makes a big difference. So it’s all good now, I can play mygames, have more than one tab open and generally not…

  • We will fight them on the beaches…

    Some things are worth fighting for and I have decided to stop being dominated by my fears and try my hardest to get out of this situation I find myself in. Memories to me are like cancer spreading through your mind and body. The good memories start to fade, or you get a twinge of…

  • Gag

    I could write a poem about the joys of sleeping on a bed but I will spare you. A few things happened since I last posted but I don’t want to talk about it. Not yet anyway. Hence, the title ‘gag’. I’ve been speaking to O yesterday, we had a good email exchange going and…

  • Midlife Madness

    So today is my birthday! 40 years, never in a million years did I think I would make it to this milestone. Despite trying my best to kill myself multiple times, I am somehow still here. I find that cause to celebrate. A subway with all the toppings is en route. I got cards this…

  • We got there in the end

    Hello. Firstly I would like to apologize for not doing a post yesterday. I took the easy way out and did multiple QOTDs. Things are going well. Ish. I did self-harm in the end last night because I couldn’t stop the stupid thoughts going through my mind. Bit of damage, but nothing the dr needs…

  • Kid

    I want to self-harm so badly. B is home. Kid. Cant self-harm if there are kids, remember? damn.

  • That didn’t go as expected

    ded up waking up two days ago, at 4am, with an FND attack. I couldn’t speak properly, nor move around or do anything. I went upstairs to the bathroom in the end. Then back down and slept it off. It was still there when I woke up but its better now. I can function again.…

  • Reborn #2

    Today is a new day, a whole brand new fresh day, and one to move on with. I’m currently covered in scratches from Dobby as it was bath time and hair trimming. Much hair was lost. But alas I found it on my trousers, t-shirt, and underwear. Everywhere. Not that I mind but I’m still…

  • Very superstitious

    It happened. I got so depressed that I thought I would pick myself up a bit and dust off. Took my big boy pills and took the dogs for a walk. Granted it was just to the green space across the road but I managed a few laps of it before getting agonising back pain.…

  • A little time

    So. D and the kids are off camping, they set off on Saturday for 9 days of camping all around Scotland. I’m here, at home with the dogs, unsupervised. The occupational therapy nurse came today and I managed to get up off the sofa with one hand and not face-planting. They still want me to…