Category: Randomness

  • I’m Trapped in My Own Mind

    I’ve been struggling with something for a long time, and I’m finally ready to talk about it. I’m trapped in my own mind. It’s not like I’m daydreaming all the time. It’s more like I’m living in a different world. A world where I’m not in control, can’t escape but everything is perfect. But then,…

  • QOTD

    I’ve answered and deleted it about five times. I have, what you will call, a love-and hate-relationship of camping. The posh snobbery that I was brought on taught me to turn my nose up at camping. My parents never took me camping, instead favoring static homes and hotel resorts. So naturally when confronted with “Let’s…

  • Alone time

    I love my own company. I know this is different from the post that I did before where I need a friend. I’m still a friendless wonder but I love being on my own simply because I can play my music (so it doesn’t bother people), I can sing or hmm (I won’t get screamed…

  • QOTD

    After dropping the kids off at school I would park up and take the dog for a walk in the park next to the school. Nice park, a bit plain but has grass and squirrels which are two things that I look for in a decent park. I was walking along the outskirts. Near the…

  • Avoid the void, question time!

    What are your top 5 favorite things to do on a rainy day?

  • The Tomb

    I’ll talk about something that I find stupid. You won’t find it stupid because you are normal. Well maybe not since you are reading a blog filled with voidness. So here it is… I miss having friends and being close to them. I’m painfully aware it’s due to my lack of leaving the house, social…

  • Question Time

    Ok to make things a bit different. ie. stop talking about my impending fate. I’ve decided to let Bard suggest fun things to blog about. So the first of these is… What are your top 5 favorite books? Tom Clancy – Red Storm rising The book begins with a terrorist attack on a Soviet oil…

  • Everything is beautiful

    Okay. I’ll try and empty my mind as to what was said on Saturday night and how I feel about it. We were in bed, and I was getting wound up again by things wondering why they are happening. D said “I wouldn’t blame you if you did kill yourself with everything that is going…

  • Mindset

    Sorry for the delay, as always, but things got a bit blurry on Friday and I don’t remember most of the afternoon. That weird thing happened again. I wake up and the world is spinning, voices are chanting like a Gregorian choir and I’m stumbling about. It feels like I’ve not taken my risperidone but…

  • Decent

    So today marks day three of my descent into madness. I don’t know whether it’s a naturally occurring cycle of ups and downs repeating themselves in a timeless fashion. I’ve started interacting with my hallucinations and the audio ones. My vision is blurred but I can still just about make them out. They change on…