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Not sure what to blog about today. The three little dots come to mind. Between the dots, the silence is astounding. I’m teetering on the edge of mania. The anticipation is unbearable. Usually this is when a Valium is required to bring me back to reality but I don’t want to. I’ve been watching this…
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Overcoming Anxiety: A Trek to the Shop and Contemplations on Fear
I know its been a few days since I last posted. I’ve been wallowing in my own self pity again. It peaked yesterday so am slowly coming back up, hopefully. It left me wondering about a few things, fear of leaving the flat. I’ve had this get worse as time goes by and I thought…
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QOTD – FML
Hmm. An excellent question to which there are many many answers. 3 Months in hospital3 Months PhysioDiagnosed with FNDUse a walking stick/crutchSeparated pending divorce in March 2024Living in a hotel room since August 2023Had driving license take off me due to medical groundsLost my carWeight gain from 6 months of not moving muchBlack outs and…
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Queen – Save Me
It started off so wellThey said we made a perfect pairI clothed myself in your glory and your loveHow I loved youHow I criedThe years of care and loyaltyWere nothing but a sham it seemsThe years belie we lived a lieI love you till I dieSave me save me save meI can’t face this life…
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Crisis.
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Drugs. Risk. Drugs. Dammit. QOTD
Risk is drugs for me. I haven’t hidden or spared any details on my blog about my battles with addiction or the general fact that I take 27 tablets a day. What would I love to do? Come off every single one and see how things are. The vast majority of the meds I take…
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Seizures & FND = Double tag team
Seizures. I had a seizure again. I lost two hours this time, so it was shorter than a full-blown one but longer than a small one. I’m starting to lose hope, a little bit every time one comes. It isn’t about banging or not banging my head off something; it’s the sheer randomness of the…
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I only came here for the drugs QOTD
Don’t know, well, it’s something I’m more ashamed of than anything else. Long ago in my past, I went through a tough spot. I was being seen by doctors who were quickly trying to help me. This was in 2011-2012, which doesn’t feel like that long ago. I was in crisis, and they prescribed antipsychotics…
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Daily writing prompt
A blog post, simply because I have no idea where to start or what to type about. I quit blogging after my last post. I cancelled the payments, which then pulled my domain, and yeah. It wasn’t until I spoke to D about it that I realized that I enjoy blogging and that it is…