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Mindset
Sorry for the delay, as always, but things got a bit blurry on Friday and I don’t remember most of the afternoon. That weird thing happened again. I wake up and the world is spinning, voices are chanting like a Gregorian choir and I’m stumbling about. It feels like I’ve not taken my risperidone but…
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Decent
So today marks day three of my descent into madness. I don’t know whether it’s a naturally occurring cycle of ups and downs repeating themselves in a timeless fashion. I’ve started interacting with my hallucinations and the audio ones. My vision is blurred but I can still just about make them out. They change on…
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Hybrid
“There is greatness in doing something you hate for the sake of someone you love.”― Shmuley Boteach It’s new book day. I finished reading the Death Note series so now I’m trying to decide whether to get a load of random comics to read through. See I like that method because you can buy a…
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A tips & tricks post of randomness
I thought it would be nice to create a post with some tips and tricks that I have learned during my time on this rotating rock we can home. You’ll probably know a few of them already but brushing up on your knowledge never hurts. Self-harm woundsIf you have self-harmed, it’s important to take care…
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Captives
“Some people never go crazy. What truly horrible lives they must lead.”― Charles Bukowski I wanted to write a blog post about addiction but given my last few posts, I think I’ll switch it up a little bit. I’ve always had a strange relationship with my parents while they were alive. I find it interesting…
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Erebus
“We were somewhere around Barstow, on the edge of the desert, when the drugs began to take hold.”― Hunter S. Thompson, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas D has taken the kids and gone on a mini-holiday with them, in a boat, in 60 mph winds. It was an interesting moment when I received the…
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Easter aka Zombie Jesus Day
It’s been a real roller coaster the past few days, to be honest. I started getting hounded with thoughts and imaginary guilt trips which I really didn’t need. Why I do this to myself I don’t know. Reliving memories and seeing the pain, hurt, and suffering I’ve caused. My brain takes it out of context…
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Bard
I’ve been messing around with Bard again. I’ve discovered how useful it is for generating SEO, content and other web dev stuff. I then thought maybe it can help me with explaining a few things. I asked it, after feeding it information, to generate an explanation regarding my visual & audio hallucinations. It came up…
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Exit Wounds
I think I am doing better. I had a really rough night, nightmares spinning around my head, couldn’t wake up from them. Woke up covered in sweat again. It seems that the medication I take to stop sweating doesn’t work on nightmares. If there are no nightmares then I wake up without a drop on…