-
We got there in the end
Hello. Firstly I would like to apologize for not doing a post yesterday. I took the easy way out and did multiple QOTDs. Things are going well. Ish. I did self-harm in the end last night because I couldn’t stop the stupid thoughts going through my mind. Bit of damage, but nothing the dr needs…
-
Kid
I want to self-harm so badly. B is home. Kid. Cant self-harm if there are kids, remember? damn.
-
Random Q’s
How much do I think I rely on external validation?I suppose most people will be the same. I do rely quite heavily on external validation. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have a blog, which is let’s face it- all about you and your world looking for people to comment on or like for validation. In my day-to-day…
-
That didn’t go as expected
ded up waking up two days ago, at 4am, with an FND attack. I couldn’t speak properly, nor move around or do anything. I went upstairs to the bathroom in the end. Then back down and slept it off. It was still there when I woke up but its better now. I can function again.…
-
Crappy poem #7
I’m angry, oh, so angry,That you’ve left me after ten years,And I’ve done nothing to deserve it,That’s what I can’t seem to learn. You say I’m too controlling,That I’m not spontaneous enough,But I’ve always tried to be there for you,And I’ve always put your needs first. So why have you left me?What have I done…
-
Very superstitious
It happened. I got so depressed that I thought I would pick myself up a bit and dust off. Took my big boy pills and took the dogs for a walk. Granted it was just to the green space across the road but I managed a few laps of it before getting agonising back pain.…
-
A little time
So. D and the kids are off camping, they set off on Saturday for 9 days of camping all around Scotland. I’m here, at home with the dogs, unsupervised. The occupational therapy nurse came today and I managed to get up off the sofa with one hand and not face-planting. They still want me to…
-
Enough stalling
I’ve been meaning to do a post all day but keep finding ways to avoid it. Why? I have no idea. The short stories are nearing an end. Thank god. I’ve pre-written and scheduled the last of them and my god they were hard, the last ones, you’ll see. It’s raining. Which I love. The…
-
Ascension
Things have been a bit better. I did have a fall in the garden and am licking my wounds but still trying to carry on with a smile on my face. R came round for monthly Dad time, we talked, I got fathers Day presents and it was nice. She is growing up to be…