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QOTD
What is one goal you have for the next year? Surprisingly I do actually have some goals for the year. I say a year but let’s clarify that to one year from today. Boring Goals:Pay off credit cardsAlways have a positive balance in my account Less boring goals:Visit & do a weekly shop in the…
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What’s in my bag?
I found a list of different interesting things to fill in here when I’m struggling with thoughts. Cheating but more help than cheat. I’m still tired. I managed to drop off around 5am on the sofa surrounded by dogs. I’m shattered but it did the trick, I didn’t toss and turn thinking of things, I…
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It worked
The method of trying to banish the sleep demon was unorthodox but it served its purpose. I couldn’t see the words on the screen anymore as I was that tired. It was around 5am, and I managed to secure a spot on the sofa with a few bribes for the dogs. I fell asleep instantly.…
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Sleep demons
My eyes hurt. I’m sure this is down to a lack of sleep. Got the screen on the dimmest mode possible which is helping. I’m having another rough day. Its been relentless for what will be a week tomorrow. I don’t want to go to sleep. Not for some petulant reason but more if I…
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Baileys out of a shoe
That is two dogs now. Both were rescued from Poland and are now being fussed over and played with constantly. That’s me on the left as well. Dobby, the lovely hound on the left has just joined us. She is doing well apart from terrorizing the cat, but Bella now has a sanctuary upstairs. Things…
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Living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD): My Journey to Recovery
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) are both mental health conditions that have significantly impacted my life. BPD is characterized by intense and unstable emotions, impulsive behavior, and a distorted sense of self, while PTSD is a condition that can develop after experiencing or witnessing a traumatic event. In this post, I…
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Scribblings
So for my sins, I have been charged with 2 tooth extractions, a filling, and some kind of other white fillings for the receding gums. I haven’t had any treatment for quite a few years so I see this as not such a bad thing. The extractions could be turned into fillings but as they…
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Procrastination is the devil
So I started this blog post two days ago when I couldn’t focus on doing some work that needed doing. I’ll keep the title because it’s a true statement and something which happens to me often. It’s not a lazy thing (that’s what they all say) but more a, I work better in the evening…
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The importance of sleep
Sleep. A fundamental part of all of us, great and small. Can’t live without it but these days I can’t live with it. I think it all started a few days ago. Might of been a week. Horredous nightmares reliving past trauma resulting in really poor sleep, waking up in a sweat or moving alot…
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Howdy
SO I havent resorted to drinking yet which is always a plus. I had another wobble. These past few months have been relentless with them. I know I’m supposed to realise that wobbles happen, you execute the care plan and then it stops before flairing up again. Some days great, other days irrational thoughts overload!…