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I’m Trapped in My Own Mind
I’ve been struggling with something for a long time, and I’m finally ready to talk about it. I’m trapped in my own mind. It’s not like I’m daydreaming all the time. It’s more like I’m living in a different world. A world where I’m not in control, can’t escape but everything is perfect. But then,…
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Decent
So today marks day three of my descent into madness. I don’t know whether it’s a naturally occurring cycle of ups and downs repeating themselves in a timeless fashion. I’ve started interacting with my hallucinations and the audio ones. My vision is blurred but I can still just about make them out. They change on…
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Hybrid
“There is greatness in doing something you hate for the sake of someone you love.”― Shmuley Boteach It’s new book day. I finished reading the Death Note series so now I’m trying to decide whether to get a load of random comics to read through. See I like that method because you can buy a…
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The geekness
Sort of like. The reckoning but with geeks. On my left I have a box of unopened Mario cards, then the official folder it goes into. Then another official folder for Marvel heroes. I also have a pile of Mimaque Pokemon cards which I opened last week and need to put into a new folder.…
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Easter aka Zombie Jesus Day
It’s been a real roller coaster the past few days, to be honest. I started getting hounded with thoughts and imaginary guilt trips which I really didn’t need. Why I do this to myself I don’t know. Reliving memories and seeing the pain, hurt, and suffering I’ve caused. My brain takes it out of context…
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Bard
I’ve been messing around with Bard again. I’ve discovered how useful it is for generating SEO, content and other web dev stuff. I then thought maybe it can help me with explaining a few things. I asked it, after feeding it information, to generate an explanation regarding my visual & audio hallucinations. It came up…
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Exit Wounds
I think I am doing better. I had a really rough night, nightmares spinning around my head, couldn’t wake up from them. Woke up covered in sweat again. It seems that the medication I take to stop sweating doesn’t work on nightmares. If there are no nightmares then I wake up without a drop on…
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It worked
The method of trying to banish the sleep demon was unorthodox but it served its purpose. I couldn’t see the words on the screen anymore as I was that tired. It was around 5am, and I managed to secure a spot on the sofa with a few bribes for the dogs. I fell asleep instantly.…
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Sleep demons
My eyes hurt. I’m sure this is down to a lack of sleep. Got the screen on the dimmest mode possible which is helping. I’m having another rough day. Its been relentless for what will be a week tomorrow. I don’t want to go to sleep. Not for some petulant reason but more if I…